Towards........

So much has come together for me in the last month or so. Not sure if it's the meditating along with the reading, the show.. my life back to where I want it to be as far as work is concerned. I'm guessing it is all of it. It's because it is what I want. Where I want it all to be.

Focusing on that, what I do want rather than what I don't.

duh.

Most of the summer, I was focused on just that.. what I DIDN'T want and that is exactly what I got.. more of what I didn't want.. It was the moving away from experience rather than the moving towards experience.

I want this.

Working with the assemblages has been such a blessing. They've all come together easily for the most part. Anything that didn't, I left to sit with awhile. It was when I pushed rather than went with the flow - that it didn't fall into place.

Sometimes I just walked away and worked on another piece until it some how clicked. Many times it was the rummaging throught stuff that the perfect piece was found and then the flow came back. Wonderful.

It's pretty much a lesson of life. Stop pushing, resisting, but rather focus on what it is you do want, focus on the end result or the feeling it would provoke instead.

and stop carrying other people's baggage!

Travel lightly.

If something is unclear, ask questions, even if it is to yourself.

Choosing to move towards that which brings me the greatest joy, the best feelings, towards that which feels full of love. Respond to the experience of each blessed moment.

Be in it.

Make Art and Have Fun.

Y

Power of the elements

If there is one thing I have learned, it is the importance of spending time in nature. The power that Nature brings to us... soothing quality of water (until there is too much of it)... clean, clear blue skies (until there is too much of it).. Nature teaches us the importance of balance.
We appreciate rain, when there is too little of it and the sun when there is too much.
Balance of the elements. Balance in our lives.
Appreciating when our lives are in balance, each time working harder to maintain it.
It is appreciated more so when we lose that balance and then find it again.
It is difficult to maintain.
We fall into drama, allow fears, worries and other's opinions, to control our decisions... fear of what? What or who are we listening to, allowing our judgement to be contaminated?
We all need to be media-free for awhile. Turn off the TV, the radio, your cell, computer, and whatever gadget you may be addicted to and spend some alone time, quiet time... just listening.
Listen to nature. Listen to your Self. Your wise, sacred and divine Self. Pass the chatter of ego, you will eventually hear Her or Him.
Please remind me of this.

Swan's message

Lessons from Life on the issue of balance... Swan speaks of commitment among other things.

I've noticed how I have commited to things this year that I was unable to complete. It's not something I relish. I like to honor my commitments... but I have been remiss in this area.

I have over committed.. AGAIN. Maybe I'm just naive, thinking I can do more than I am capable of.

My mother used to say my eyes were bigger than my stomach... and this has held true for more than my food appetite.. It is my wanting to participate in all those cool projects, interesting jobs and those things that challenge me to move outside the box.

yes.. yes.. yes.. one too many times. ok, more than ONE too many times.

I'm thinking we should have a mute button on us. I am just too quick on the words without thinking it through. Too impulsive.
I should practice, "I'll get back to you"....

Swan has such grace and I've lost it a few times this summer. MELTDOWN is being kind.

Swans mate for life, which is why they are thought to symbolize commitment... and if I had unlimited time to bring forward all that I've committed to, then I don't really have a problem.

Unfortunately, other's don't see it this way.

As far as the balance thing, over-committing means it leaves scant time for my own stuff... my "thinking process" time, my own art, mandalas, journaling, blogging, my upcoming show of assemblages and shrines... what-in-the-world-was-I-thinking?!?
The new moon eclipse brought up a buried old dream/solution. Starting a morning only Art & Yoga camp for preschoolers 4 days a week next summer. Saying goodbye to 25 years of camp art. There are attachments, but I know I need this for my sanity. It is time to let go.

For balance, I need a committment to myself.

Om :-)

Mercury retrograde was not very nice to me this time around... I went to Wordpress for a bit, because I think I may have deleted something terribly important while I tried to get rid of some squawking chicken sounding bogus anti virus thingy....
go here:
http://doegrozart.wordpress.com
and for more art stuff.. http://mandalas4me.wordpress.com
see you there...
bring on some balance!!!!!!!

Where's my Tao!

Coming to the computer, I find all sorts of messages... Well, actually, ALL of life has messages for you if you are one to look for them :-)
I walked outside the other day and this was my first one. Yes, what a life I have!
For the past few months, it feels as though all four burners have been on high. Life is cooking with all sorts of jobs, projects, obligations with family care, tax prep, art show, clients being added to the list of to-do's ... My plate was not only full, but overflowing.
My pendulum had swung to the extreme right........
and you all know, when it swings one way, it needs to swing back the other way.
The other extreme is what I felt yesterday and it is lingering now.
I'm depleted. I want to rest, regroup, clean up the mess in order to move on to the next project.
Messages today seem to validate that feeling:

"You might also take frequent breaks throughout the course of today and focus on creating a serene mind-set. The more centered you are, the easier it will be to calmly get your points across."
"Allow yourself a break in the action "
Centered. That is what I would like to be, feel..
The middle way.
The Tao.
No extremes, just centered in the middle.
I don't see myself as being still, but move to the right a little and work, move a little to the left and rest (play).
The above astrological messages give voice to what I need to do.. small bites, a little time here and there to balance out the energy. The sun is opposite my natal Neptune, calling for the balance of energetic giving of myself vs. the dreamy down time of doing some art work for myself.
I have to sneak it in, but what my body really wants is fullness of play - yes, the other extreme of a vacation!
But for now, in finding the middle ground, I will take frequent breaks.

Love :-)

I just had to share this wonderful poem. It was on Sue's blog with her wonderful mandalas and it touched me. I don't cry easily, but I did because it felt so true. This is what I believe.. that it is Love that changes, heals, creates, and fills us with Joy.

If you have Love, anything is possible.

Love Is The New Religion

On the surface of the world right now there is war and violence and things seem dark

But calmly and quietly, at the same time, something else is happening underground

An inner revolution is taking place and certain individuals are being called to a higher light

It is a silent revolution

From the inside out

From the ground up

It is time for me to reveal myself

I am an embedded agent of a secret, undercover

Clandestine Global operation

A spiritual conspiracy

We have sleeper cells in every nation on the planet

You won't see us on the T.V.

You won't read about us in the newspaper

You won't hear about us on the radio

We don't seek any glory

We don't wear any uniform

We come in all shapes and sizes

Colors and styles

Most of us work anonymously

We are quietly working behind the scenes in every country and culture of the world

Cities big and small, mountains and valleys, in farms and villages, tribes and remote islands

You could pass by one of us on the street and not even notice

We go undercover

We remain behind the scenes

It is of no concern to us who takes the final credit

But simply that the work gets done

Occasionally we spot each other in the street

We give a quiet nod and continue on our way so no one will notice

During the day many of us pretend we have normal jobs

But behind the false storefront at night is where the real work takes place

Some call us the "Conscious Army"

We are slowly creating a new world with the power of our minds and hearts

We follow, with passion and joy

Our orders from the Central Command

The Spiritual Intelligence Agency

We are dropping soft, secret love bombs when no ones is looking

Poems

Hugs

Music

Photography

Movies

Kind words

Smiles

Meditation and prayer

Dance

Social activism

Websites

Blogs

Random acts of kindness

We each express ourselves in our own unique ways with our own unique gifts and talents

"Be the change you want to see in the world"

That is the motto that fills our hearts

We know it is the only way real transformation takes place

We know that quietly and humbly we have the power of all the oceans combined

Our work is slow and meticulous

Like the formation of mountains

It is not even visible at first glance

And yet with it entire tectonic plates shall be moved in the centuries to come

Love is the new religion of the 21st century

You don't have to be a highly educated person

Or have any exceptional knowledge to understand it

It comes from the intelligence of the heart

Embedded in the timeless evolutionary pulse of all human beings

Be the change you want to see in the world

Nobody else can do it for you

We are now recruiting

Perhaps you will join us

Or already have....

All are welcome...

The door is open

-Brian Piergrossi (From the book "The Big Glow")

Lion Heart

A friend from the Mandala Oasis group wasn't feeling well and when I went into my studio I did this mandala holding the intention of healing.

She gives a lot, has a big heart.. a very encouraging person.

As I was just allowing, I thought about balance. It's when we are out of balance that we become sick.. even with a simple cold. Sometimes it's the imbalance of taking care of others without giving ourselves some nurturing.

Us, nature... everything must be in balance in order to function to the best of it's ability. We've all been there.

As I was coloring it, courage entered my thoughts. I thought of the lion, fire, and the courage it took to change.

It takes courage to heal. Healing means something needs to change. Whether it be our diet, balancing work and play, releasing worries or grief... the big stuff needs more change and that takes a lot more courage.

I watched my husband transform his lifestyle due to a health scare. It took courage to say no to so many things that he took for granted and became comfortable with.

When we become so embedded into a certain way of living, it is hard to change. Our comfort level becomes disturbed. Warning. Warning.. change or die.

With so much information about smoking, why do people still smoke... or drink too much... or eat too much.. because it's hard to change. It takes a lot of courage.

This is what this little mandala had to say to me. It spoke to me of courage.

It takes courage to do art and put it out there. To sing your song, to be your true self.

e.e. cummings said it so well...

" To be nobody else

but yourself

in a world which is doing it's best,

night and day,

to make you everybody else -

means to fight the hardest battle

which any human being can fight,

and never stop fighting."

As I teach, the hardest part is to get this across. We all want to belong, so we conform. We copy. We wear what's in style, play the same music... it's all about comfort and sometimes being different is not so comfortable... and that's why it takes a huge amount of courage to be yourself. It takes you out of the comfort zone... "what will They think???"

Do that what brings you joy in play and work.

How courageous can you be today... in your art, your relationships...your clothing... ?