Friday, March 12, 2010

Which direction..

I titled this "looking for direction". It is my "process" of moving.. where to move to.
Direction plays a large part. Which window faces east.. north..
Yesterday, this is one of the things I paid attention to as I took a look at an apartment.
Where will the studio be... will the sun shine on me in the a.m.
I have lived in one place for 33 years!
We have a lot of stuff.. some will come with us and a lot of it will not. Much of it will have to be disassembled.
I built our bed.. high off the ground like a loft bed. I made one for Jake too, which became my art table when he moved out.... with shelves built up to the ceiling. Storage under the bed-turned-table.
Jake built me another table with shelves above it for my paints. I built more shelves against another wall.. as I did in the living room. One wall of shelving for our books. Even in the kitchen I built shelves and cabinets. Everything made to fit!
If I took apart these pieces, I would have a LOT of wood and not much in the way of furniture.
There is something to say about starting from scratch. A certain excitment of starting over, doing things differently... having more experience of what works and what doesn't.
And yet, there is also that sentimental side... missing already the work I have done... painted ceilings and walls.. painted how I chose. Not a white wall in sight.
I am a bit concerned about moving somewhere else and having restrictions on this... I need to express myself in my surrounding.. I need a creative environment. I need to paint walls!
Every place I have lived.. ok, not a lot in that department.. but the places I did live in were covered with my art.
It's one of those things where I can be very rooted -as in staying in a place for a length of time... but please give me the wings I need to fly around and be creative... keeping my fingers crossed on this one.


Laura Hegfield said...

Wow, big stuff...letting go and transplanting roots....reading this I got an idea...what if you covered the walls with fabric? Just a thought.

May you find a place that feels like a safe container, where you will be happy and feel loved and loving...where you will continue to grow and fly with those creative wings of yours.

Doe Grozs Art said...

Kind of like being "root-bound".. growing out of this pot :-)
Thanks for the idea, but what I would really like to do, is take it off and paint. If not, well, that may be an idea to play around with....

Laura Hegfield said...